It’s taken some time to figure out why I’ve lacked ideas and inspiration to post. And I now realise it’s because I’ve felt hypocritical and had some aspects of imposter syndrome.
For some reason I’d got it in my head that in order to be able to post and “be motivational” for others, I have to be fully recovered and in an amazing place in life. Otherwise, what right do I have to give advice/suggestions? Feeling like it’s stupid of me to try and be helpful because I’m struggling myself with my own issues.
But when you think about it, how silly is that thought? Any motivation, help, guidance I can give to people who suffer through similar things is the point. Just because I find it difficult to take my own advice doesn’t mean others can’t. Let’s be real, nobody is good at taking their own advice. And I feel like I’ve been through too much and know a lot about mental health that it would be wrong of me to not share what I’ve learnt and experienced. This isn’t because I have to, but I want to. I know how it is to be in those dark places, I’ve done the trial and error of treatments, therapy, medications. I’ve felt the lowest lows and I’ve somehow brought myself out of them at times. I have a story to share and ideas to give. Even if I struggle applying it to my own life, I know it can benefit someone out there.
No one ever became an expert at something right off the bat. Even the thousands of influencers that have battled things still have their moments. No one is perfect. We’re all always learning and growing as people. Our experiences and thoughts never stop. So if being able to help others professionally is what I want to do eventually, I have to start somewhere. I may not be “qualified” on paper yet, but I’m a firm believer that no average doctor or therapist will ever truly know what a patient goes through unless they do themselves. No book can teach mental illness in its entirety. So I’d like to think I have an advantage in that aspect to be able to help others in a more empathetic way.
So I hope my words can make some difference to those who read them. It’s as much for you as it is for me. When I write, I speak to myself as much as I speak to you.